We shall not cease from exploration, and the end of all our exploring
will be to arrive where we started and know the place for the first
time.
-T.S. Eliot


It has happened!! Yes it has!! Well I don't know how many have had it
before or having it right now. I don't know whether this is the end
or the beginning nor do I care. But I know this IS and this IS gonna
be forever!! It was a Saturday afternoon by the lake in the beautiful
serene NDA campus in Pune. I was sitting by the lake pondering on my
beloved Guru's ashtavakra commentary, feeling the breeze and looking
at the green plants and trees moving in the breeze, looking at the
movements in the still water. Mind was devoid of any movements and I
was just feeling the presence of the calmness. And then IT was there.
A knowing that everything IS.. The sheer existence of the nature just
made confirmed my original thought that the universe is just IS. When
I saw the trees and birds and the animals around, it hit me once and
for all there is no higher purpose of this creation. It IS. It just
exists (oh yeah camus!!), There is nowhere to go. Like once Osho has
said, " Life is like a beautiful sunset with no purpose". It is right
here, right NOW. It is not meant to be beautiful or ugly, it is just
supposed to be.

I have heard this and read this many a times in many books and have
kind of felt this before temporarily before. . But this time I knew
this was IT. Uhhh.HE makes the profoundest of the knowledge sound so
simple.

The universe is just IS, and so are we. I was working on my way to
perfection all these days, waiting for the day, to become that all
these days. I was waiting and working on the day for pefection,
sometimes feeling great, sometime feeling not so great. Sometimes
knowing that I am becoming calmer and dispassionate, sometimes knowing
that I would never get there because of my past karmas or whatever it
is. So the purpose kept on swaying, and so were my actions. I was sure
that (after lot of affirmations from my guru and books) I was on the
right path, but then when I am going to reach there? And what about my
other priorities/desires in my life? Shouldn't I become a guru in
Linux kernel and storage, architecturing new age solutions in my home
in Silicon Valley in the US? How do I balance this? What is that I
want to see myself at 40? How I do adopt seven effective habits in my
life? Is this action urgent or important? Shouldn't I be doing
service? How do I feel good about service when sometimes I feel so
good not about other? Like anyone else,I wanted to be perfect. How
would I find my perfect partner in my life with whom I would laugh at,
discuss quantum mechanics and mysteries of the universe and share the
joys of the bluegrass music, feel the depth of the classical music and
the tears of the blues and the beauty of Allen ginsberg's poems? When
could I sing so well to feel spiritually elevated? There were
occasional feelings of achievement and guilt. Achievement when you did
some things you wanted, and guilt when just could not complete 50% of
the TODO list. These were the questions and happenings and I was
somewhere on the road, doing ok for myself. I was generally happy in
life and high on everything, but then the eternal perfection I was
longing for was missing. Then you would accept that the eternal
perfection is impossible to achieve and thought that may be after
another "you don'tt know how many number of.lifetimes", the day would
arrive when my Guru would touch on my head, and the I would know the
mystery of the mysteries. So I better to do the right thing right now
for that. ( Long term planning ? ) . Some of the days, my meditation
would be really great, some of the days not so good. Again following
the theory, I tried to be dispassionate towards even them.. I did feel
the the dispassion and contentment often. The only dumb thing I was
doing here was I was working for it. . But now since everything IS ,
with this present state and a future state being the same, how I could
I ever work for perfection? I can never become that, as I am that. So
once you know that what IS at this moment, there is nowhere to go,
NOTHING specifically to do. You don'tt accept the current moment
fully as again acceptance is again an effort, you know that this
moment IS.


Any human misery is a result of the wanting. A want comes from a lack
of the current moment or state, from ignorance that this state is not
the perfect state. . You can never do any action to get to a better
state, as you ARE ( so is the future state ) . All you can do is
abide in your isness and naturally the smile follows..rather what else
? It is like a state diagram where all the states exist ( at the same
time ).

So nothing to do? You want to ask isn't that a state of non-action or giving up?
There is no "non action" here. ( action and non action again are equal
here. The giving up is not a result of frustration, it is from a
state of absolute contentment. It's like "act with contentment"
instead of "act for contentment". The contentment is not just a
fool's paradise feeling, but from a state of being where when we know
something, you know that. You didnt need anyone tell you that you were
feeling good or love when you felt it. You knew that was love. Well
as you realize that everything is just IS, any action or non-action
are same. So if you do any action or if you don'tt do, both that are
'what is'. So how do you decide what choice to make? What choice is
there to make, as both the events are going to and are part of this
perfect moment? All we could say IS, the word perfection it could be a
misnomer as Perfection indicates a positive quality. The "IS" is
beyond qualities, it just is. From this knowledge, to achieve
something (which again you don't care about) , you fix up temporality
a sankalpa ( an intention ) and do it . Since now that the state
change is unimportant, i.e. the result of the action is unimportant
it is more natural that you would not be tensed about the outcome, and
that you would give your 100% (like you do in you in a game) . And the
natural laws of the world state that the world does reward incessant
action (mostly)? Not that the reward matters though!!

The action that follows this state is that of spontaneity and that of
love and that of awareness. Only thing that it cannot be the goal to
reach this goal. Interestingly if you think that you wanna be that, it
is quite easy, you just have to drop the feeling of that want. And
vow, this moment is perfect and voila you are there!!!And then work
again !!

A lot of people would already know this. If you know it, you do or you
don't. It is like a joke, you get it or you don't. Since I ( oops who
) know that this knowledge is no knowledge again , I believe noone is
going to get transformed reading this..( and even me in a later state
when the mind is disturbed ).. And millions of Gurus have tried with
their disciples, trying to get this across. Some have got it and some
haven't. . And that again IS. A lack of this knowledge is the only
way to have the world going around us. It is like a play. If everyone
remembered or knew this, all this drama of life wouldn'tt have been
happening. It would be probably just one hell of a party , ( which
again would be meaningless !! ) So let life go on and let me find
something to work on. And let me achieve that:) ?

All for nothing, nothing for all. JUST CHILL !!!
LOTS OF LOVE?LIVE IT UP!!
-suresh

Much ado about nothing.

Enlightenment is remembering what you are
hence the purpose of life is NOT enlightenment , but creation ( action )
you are here to create something, and you have choosen to do this.

The inherent state of peace is to disturb,and any distrubance has to come back
you could choose to transcend the dualities, or you can dance in the
dualities where you get occasional glimpse of the ultimate or you
could swing to either state.( possibly because of bored of your divine
existence:)) )
and the purpose of creation ( == action ) is getting back to
remembering what you are…..
and hence the non duality of everything…

everything is right only from a personal context....do any action only
if it makes sense to you...and you want it ....sometimes it is very
difficult to know what you REALLY WANT, because ..the real self does
not want it..you have to do some "soul-searching"..ie look at the core
layers near to the self for the needs.. they are the real wants and
the purpose of those wants is to create.….you (as an separate
individual exist ) because of this wants…

every person can look at their lifes.... find the real wants..they
could chose to drop them or FULLFILL THEM..both the choices are
right....

no want is given without the power to FULFILL it.. ( yeah bach is right J)

every action including "raping" and "preaching" is SACRED..( shocking?!!)...

every action including "sweeping on the streets" and "researching
astrophysics" is GREAT...mind loves challenges...( that’s the way the
mind is )
IT IS impossible to "COMMUNICATE" in the TRUE SENSE.... everything is
different subtly.

everything is preprgrammed..but you have the absolute free will at the
same time..

There is choice /as well as illusion of choice at the same time. In
the absolute, there is no choice, in fact there is nothing at all to
talk about the absolute...

You have to use the rules of the world (or natural laws of the
world…which again could be derived from the absolute truth or from the
self) , even to teach people the absolute or to succeed in the
corporate world....

what goes up , HAS TO come down...and what is going down also has to
COME UP...but in the center, you have a chance of going up or going
down...

Choice is yours to go up or DOWN right now or take rest in the center
for a while....

the meaning is in the meaningless..you get what you want in the long
run? What else do you want :))?

Everything/every person is SACRED.( SACRED is a non judgmental
beautiful thing..)
Beauty is beyond judgments…
Truth is beauty and beauty is truth..(Yeah Keats is right:) )
Knowledge of this is enough to kill the ego
death of ego is enlightenment…

The universe always goes out of balance just to strive balance...

The constant movement of going off balance and coming to balance, this
dynamic equilibrium is the law of the universe... the same thing is
evident in every entity ( macro or micro ) of the universe. It is an
interplay of opposites. This is probably what the Chinese used to call
as the "yin and yang"

This includes everything ( randomly picked ) like

chaos & order
subject & object
good & bad
action & inaction (rest)
left brain & right brain
male & female
freedom & discipline
art & Science
any force particle & its anti particle.
velocity & postiion

The good news is you can perform 100% action being in the middle path,
being aware of your infinite nature.

The interplay is so beautiful and that these are interleaved. ie there
is chaos in order and order in chaos. This is applicable for every
other opposite..

this is the why there is a seemingly contradiction everywhere...
and the truth is beyond , but in both the opposites. .it is the one
encompassing the oppssites..and it just is ( which is beyond qualities
),

And finally when you felt that you have figured it all, the universe
would surprise you ( as you inherently have to loose the balance you
have achieved ). The same goes for life and everything else..This is
what makes the so-called middle path so beautiful. Middle path is like
walking on a rope, in a dance to both sides, without moving an inch
one feet on earth , one off the ground...And Life becomes a free ride,
and everything becomes JUST IS !

Ultimately every one/every thing in the world is following a middle
path consciously or unconsciously..

You have chosen to do everything on this planet. It is a role you have
choosen for....

Even gods are choosing to do. Some of them choose to be gods. Bigger
responsibility ...more power.. ….( see the lives of the masters )

hence there is no ultimate place to go to ....well there is as well...: )….

Every rule of the small mind, applies to the big mind (ISHWAR ?? ) as
well. However the big consciousness is resting...

The consciousness of GOD ( BIG MIND ) is the Brahman ( the one which
is beyond the truth. the one we are trying to derive this “non-dual”
rules from )

Every moment , you have a choice for action ( creation or destruction
, just complimentary actions..+/- ..we cant just which one is
creation/destruction ) or rest. Either one is fine.

Every act of creation , there has to be complimenting act of
destruction as well..we cant say which act is creation or which one is
destruction in the true sense...

Every life, or every minute , you have a choice to play or come back
home or be...everything IS...isness exists on left, right and middle.

Some of just choose to come home . The inherent nature is to come back
home after playing.....action vs rest..remember the striving for
equilibrium..

Every action is evolution ( ie either creation or coming back home )..
and hence every act is spiritual..

Dawning of wisdom in some space/time is a happening and IT HAS TO
HAPPEN ON WHEN YOU ARE NEAR HOME

if you are scared of loosing your identity , you would never loose
it..if you always want to remember suresh and do not want to loose his
characteristics and wants, you are bound by him..either drop
them..drop the vasanas or fullfill them...vasanas bind you...but then
what the reason of existence with NO IDENITTY ? well the price might
be high..but the reward is equally high..which is SAT-CHIT-ANANDA....

every argument is right/wrong at the same time
every knowledge with words could be correctly or misinterpreted at the same time

Every statement is wrong or right at the same time . logic breaks down
. Evolved scientists have understood this and have dropped traditional
methods of logic. and have moved to QUANTUM LOGIC...

this is one of the reasons why spirituality/truth looks so contradictory

Every act or instance would pull you to come back home or create..both
are right...you have a choice to make...you could choose ..both are
"right" ..

i could choose to forget this knowledge tomorrow to create somethng (
fullfill my real wants )....You have to instantaneously forget to
create...
the middle path is "create/come home..create/come home.."....or be
home at the time of creation...

From here, you could again choose to create or REST...

Thoughts come from nowhere. you don’t have a choice...

Every thing exists because of the opposite. and the absolute just
exists in both as IS..

Epitome of Good in western religions is GOD,while the other side is SATAN...
And Brahman, is both ( transcendal ) AND IS...

do you want to be sach-chit-ananda all through in timelessness ? you
could if you want to be..and then you drop this line too…

you have always somewhere to go...the farther away from home , the
more "miserable" you would be....you would be happier on the way back
home...
where even misery and happiness are also chosen states...

if you don’t live the knowledge it doesn’t stay. no point writing it down

every moment is a chance to live or a pointer to the knowledge. You
have a choice to make which would help you create.

You cant hold on here, inherent nature is to loose balance and then
strive for balance..you choose to create. and get into the world

even if a negative/uncomfortable thought happens and makes u feel bad,
that i also for a purpose.

Does all your wants satisfied get when u are enlightened :) ?
you reach here only when all your wants diminish. You can choose a
wish after this , ( sankalpa ) and you will have to work the worldly
way. You could choose to stay home , whenever you feel feverish.. The
world is created for this only...

What to do ?
NOTHING...if you want something else, then work for that

I CHOOSE TO GET OUT OF BALANCE NOW..and stop writing...:))

you may not understand any of these/or all of these...but either
wouldnt matter...

Like Douglas Adams has said "There is a theory which states that if
ever anyone discovers exactly what the Universe is for and why it is
here, it will instantly disappear and be replaced by something even
more bizarre and inexplicable.There is another which states that this
has already happened."
with "sheer love" of existence

big bang matching with spirituality is valid only for this universes
space time....another universe could be using an another set of
scientific laws altogether/people/things all together...

Science’s limited knowledge and objectivity could keep your mind
happy....mind breaks down at infinities. It cant fathom infinity....
but science also ultimately has to set ur mind free...any fact
anything in the world does that (or the opposite)....there could be
infinite universes( sub universes), happening all the time. In fact
any thought is a creation.... and you could choose to create infinite
things….like the world...no thoughts/wants come to you without the
power of creating it.....you are infinite possibilities....THING BIG (
big according to the mind obviously :)))

Everything in the world is a replica of the ultimate.... The apparent
human mind is a smaller version of the divine mind. and the soul is a
replica of the ultimate consciousness....and the truth JUST IS .....

there is no way to conclude...there is no beginning or end. You could
choose either way...

you always KNEW the TRUTH ( what is that now huh :) )

all the knowledge given is per situation as is happening like anything
else..Absoulte truth needs to be given to only those are ready for
it...? Ultimately the absolute truth is that there is no absolute
truth….because a statement of the truth would involve a subject and an
a object ..and hence not real.

Absolute "free thinking" is a great way to go ( hence question
everything ) as free thinking comes from the self when you have broken
down every concepts...and start afresh...ONE OF THE WAYS...KNOWLEDGE
AND FREE THINKING both are needed...it is a paradox...knowledge should
be used as a power..it should not bind you ....

Examine every thought of urs.....

faith produces logic and logic produces faith...

no difference between fiction and reality ..:))) ( can explain this to
you ..if you send me a mail : ))

A given universe makes sure that the knowledge is shared....Gurus
would come as and when time needs it.....the universe has built in
models "inside" ( as everything has to be inside:)) ) , to maintain
the equilibrium...

since none of this may not be true, why am i writing ? because i cant
, but write.....

enough of work...GO TO REST NOW..:)))

no magical tool : just clarity of thought: clarity of thought produces
right action necessary for the moment....clarity of thought increases
with absolute free thinking and the perspective you are thinking from
...

Hawkins used to say that "if we are working for a grand unified
theory, "THEORY of everything", the fact that we are working towards
it also would be controlled by it...in spirituality, the fact that you
are getting closer is facilitated by it...

Since every thing is a paradox, is there any search for truth ?

Even writing down these laws, because mind wants to understand...mind
also strives to get somewhere, the "venus isle”. From a balcony point
of view, no one is a stranger..
.whatever you do, is you were intended to do. The fallacy is assuming
that the feel good is somewhere else...



ALGORITHM OF ACTION:

GET TO A STATE OF NO WANTS, BEING , NOTHING

FIX UP ANOTHER STATE,( creativity) ( as big as you can dream )

WORK
SLOG

WATCH OUT FOR DISTRACTIONS/SIGNS/other thoughts
DROP/SURRENDER

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